The Shades of our Lives by Sarada Svensson Lewis, R.N.

The Shades

of our Lives

Sarada Lewis, RN BSN PHN

Contents

1. Holding Hands with 500 People in a Circle
2. Lusting in Life
3. Are We Following our Destinies?
4. Mood Swings
5. Natural Nalection
6. Pivital Experiences
7. Creativity
8. Finding a Solution
Self-biography

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Holding Hands with 500 People in a Circle

Oh, the joys of writing the timeless and vibrational concepts ...
For me, it's just a reminder of what the feeling is
being a spaceship on the fast-track to bliss.

Sometimes I fall into moods where
introspection leads me to poetry and utter positiveness.

Like this weekend ...
There was an overflowing of unbroken opportunities
to relate in a receptive setting ...
The consciousness of the group exponentially lifts itself higher,
like a chattering jaw quivering uncontrollably to the intensity of energy exchange.
Not exactly a nervous feeling, but that of disbelief.

Is it really reality, do I perceive love to be this real,
realized in one moment by the whole group,
embracing, holding to it steadfastly?

Without consideration of any other purpose in the moment,
we see each other eye to eye, bare as bones ...
tender as a lily ... stable as granite!

Why do we stray from this place of appreciation?

I vow to always try and live in this love.

We are not separate; only by the air do we perceive a barrier.
Other worlds explored instantly through imagination
are just as real as my lamp in front of me ...

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Lusting in Life

We never stop falling in love ...
At different stages different loves appear,
ones that can shift our mindstream to the far left.
We dream their vibrations.
They appear so compatible.
Our body is filled with the fast vibrating
vibration allowing us to be present in the now.
We let the subconscious raise up these wellings
of percolating interests,
embracing the easy and feel-good tones,
breaking through stagnation of resentments and hopeful change ...
The everlasting urge to hug the world pervades!

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Are We Following our Destinies?

I see others sometimes upset that they're not following their intuition. If we see our choices as unacceptable to even ourselves, why do we continue to put up with them?

It's easy to maintain; change is perceived as difficult. To embody change in emotionally charged situations where we are clinging, and hoping for better, will only create disappointment ... unless we can take every day and event as a surprise.

Not expecting, putting our stakes in, and allowing the possibility of loss fosters a positive outlook where we are able to see new opportunities to take. Life is short and long in 'perception,' and our viewpoint in this makes all the difference in situations we attract to ourselves. We can take every moment, savor it, and let our thoughts run wild with new reflections. Or, think of losses in the past and gains for the future, not allowing us to really be in the only reality we can grasp, and that is the now.

The gut says, "Something is just not right; why do I continue with this situation? If I let this one go I will be lonely or miss the action and opportunity that my present half-strength situation offers me. I feel trapped; I know something better and representative of my visions of self-actualization is out there."

Am I strong enough to stick up for my gut?

Letting go and giving in to long-term goals, yet recognizing the present situations around us, and engaging in the healthy activities in relating to others is a fresh breath of air energizing the way we are in true nature.

True nature ...
healthy in mind, expressing humility,
open to the universe, accepting the bad,
marching toward the light,
the expressive gut leading the weak ego
to fulfill our life purposes without stagnation.

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Mood Swings

Moods elude us,
fluctuations between connection and solitude.
I take the space and dunk myself,
seeing another's perspective into other ways of being.
I now know or relatively perceive
how a plight may be funky.

We are quirky in nature,
taking time to step outside our bodies to gaze
upon ourselves in action,
the second voice in the head ...

Embracing steadfastly the fixation on my human actions,
this body we use,
is it of me ... or am I of it?
If we (the body and the mind) are one
then how can I have this duality ...

The body does not analyze the mind, but the mind
analyzes the body ... so simple this seems,
two realities,
inseparable for the time being.
We must deal with it,
just give into the funky human union,
and accept ourselves as one!

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Natural Nalection

Cop-outs copying careless characters,
cutting cool coffins carefully,
creates clear communication of our obvious
operant observation of obtundation,
allowing another absolutely advanced perfect
placement,
flowing freely forgetting frets!

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Pivital Experiences

Caged on the edge of our capacities, the new
reality begins to present itself. The heart
beats faster as a embodiment of its meaning
threatens our present and familiar belief system.
New territory surfaces through disillusion, then
the light peaks through our clouds of resistance.
We know to stay and ingest the teachings, but
the body wants to run away. Too intense! Will I
be the same content person after the perceived
sabotage? Reluctantly, we realize how powerful
our choices are. Whether to run away or listen
to the new insight, we instinctively keep
continuing to love ourselves using defenses to
avoid insanity, thus maintaining the new and
everchanging formula of balance. So many points
to see in our solar system, all of them perceived
with equal merit, selectively embraced by the
individual lighting up their room for the next
karmic adventure.

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Creativity

Expressions of perception by the artist are
perceived by a reaction in the observer.
Infinite collages creatively constructed, dreams
connected to earth, tales told without words,
songs sung by our gazes, styles applied to the
canvas of the mind.
Chaos throws down freedom to
our clenching dehydrated bodies, new blood
instigates spontaniety. Arteries of individual
expression open ourselves and each other to new
manifestations.

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Finding a Solution

To every hard situation, there is always a solution. Finding that solution requires a creative and persistant effort. If everyone involved is willing to have open communication, even if they disagree, there will be a solution that no one person could have thought of all by themselves and it will be grander then the rest. Just need to learn how to brush off the stress while in the middle of the process...

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Self-biography by Sarada Svensson, July 2003
written as a 23 year old ...

Do I dare let all the human emotions tangle me up? It has been since the beginning of my life, recounts of independence
and defiance. I want to know it for myself firsthand ... what life tastes, smells, sees, hears and feels like.

My family can recall as a toddler, I would walk towards strangers and start exploring and relating to them, without checking to see if my family was monitoring me.

I reach out to people and seek to feel their expressions. Few areas of our society are not worth exploring for me. I
found myself as a brat in childhood. I resisted the guidance of others, insisting my behavior modifications would come from my choices. I felt comfortable in my choices and wished to let them run free. Thank goodness that I was the fifth child of my mother (Susan Kramer), and she had already been broken in. As karma has it though, my escape from discipline was not total; my father (Roger Svensson) had me as his first child, and I got both sides of the parenting coin. With both my parents, and my step-mother Maggie, I could not imagine a better upbringing with gentler loving guidance. They created my world, together. I have had the somewhat rare privilege of a liberal childhood. I was a lacto-ovo-vegetarian up until 2 months ago when I tried fish. Being raised in a vegetarian household, community members coming to our house for satsangs, friends as joyful playmates, one year living on an ashram in Virginia with beloved Sri Swami Satchidananda, attending his private school, learning yoga and meditation, and being a protected child without knowing it, has really set my course to the leftward direction.

I choose to maintain this course through community service as a R.N. in the hospital, political moves within "progressive liberalism," loving my cat Cali to death, maintaining a vegi garden, helping my personal friends in almost any way possible, and spending as much of my spiritually awake states in the singing bowl vibrational tones. There are days when I won't leave my house, and it's like the whole building is transformed into a playground of interest. I adore those days!

I now live in Santa Barbara where I have spent 21 years of my life. I'm seeking the path of an affective holistic healer. The medical field is so full of opportunities and my current job as an R.N. in the neurology department is keeping me busy. I'm also a part of the Electronic Desert Dance Movement; we go under the name of Moontribe. This is a collective of wonderful friends committed to love for one another through music, dancing, hugging and intellectual conversation. I'm the nurse there and care for the emotionally and physically distressed partiers in conjunction with my dear friend Mason.

Giving to others brings me so much joy, and that is the bottom line!

Sarada

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"The Shades of our Lives" © 2003-2011 Sarada Svensson Lewis, R.N.
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photo at top of page: Sarada Svensson Lewis, R.N.