|
Transformation |
Photo:
Sedona, Arizona |
I
knew my 30th birthday would be a harbinger of change in my life.
Here’s what I wrote in my journal the night before:
“It
is 10pm and I’ll soon be through being in my 20s. I’m finishing the 3rd
day of an Integral Yoga retreat which has awakened in my heart a desire and
reinforcement to serve God through caring for my family. I see that work as my sadhana [my spiritual pathway of living]. Come to me 30
years old. I surrender to the sound of your vibration.”
The
next day, my 30th birthday on the 30th of December
arrived and in the early afternoon I attended a lecture in the chapel given by
a dear and spiritual woman, Amma Kidd, wife of
General Jack Kidd. It was her passionate talk on feeling the joy of God while
serving family and community as one would take care of one’s self that softened
and transformed my attitudes.
From
that hour on a piece of my ego stepped aside and a wide vista opened in front of
me where I felt the whole world become my family. One moment I’m feeling the
attachment only to my biological family, and the next I’m feeling kith and kin
with creation.
Over
time through many still meditations I sunk further and deeper into feeling my
worldwide family connection, extending even to the animal and plant kingdom.
Yes, I could hug the trunk of a tree and feel it alive and connected to my
heart in the embrace.
This
has been a tremendously liberating way of living. It is as if I have wings that
extend out infinitely to envelope all. My family has not been neglected by my
expansion, because my attitude of care includes their needs as well.
Attitude
is like that: when I feel in a positive
state, energy wells up in my thoughts and body spurring me on to do what is for
the best of the situation without being depleted.
It’s
been more than another 30 years since I opened the doorway in my heart to enjoy
the vast feeling of connection with creation and I’m sure glad I did. I feel
like I’m aligning just a bit with what God must feel in loving everyone and
creation.
Blessed is the Lord in all
I sing praises to his name.
Singing will carry me home
again
In harmony with the Lord.
Birthday Transformation and photo credit copyright © 2011-2015 Susan Helene Kramer
Meditation
Lessons for Teens and Adults – book or ebook
'Active in
love by actions of love'
|
site map | webmaster | first
published June 11, 2011; updated February 5, 2015 |